Who’s your Daddy?

  • Luke Skywalker loses his mother moments after his birth, and, raised by Uncle Owen and Aunt Beru, thinks himself an orphan.
  • Dorothy Gale (in the Wonderful Wizard of Oz) is an orphan raised by Uncle Henry and Auntie Em.
  • Peter Parker, the amazing Spider-Man, was an orphan raised by his Uncle Ben and Aunt May.
  • Harry Potter, the young wizard fated to fight Lord Voldemort, is an orphan raised by his Uncle Vernon and Aunt Petunia.
  • Ofelia, the protagonist of Pan’s Labyrinth, is half-orphaned, and goes in search of her mystical ancestry.
  • In Stardust, the new Neil Gaiman movie, Tristan is raised by his father but never knew his mother, who lives in a magical realm.
  • Frodo Baggins, the hobbit charged with destroying the One Ring, was orphaned and adopted by a cousin named Bilbo.
  • In Night Watch, Yegor is raised with no knowledge of his father.

This theme isn’t just in contemporary fiction, but runs in Scriptures as well:

  • Moses was raised as a worldly prince, ignorant of his heritage in a covenant with God.
  • When his mother Mary chided him for worrying his father and her, Jesus replied that his true Father was God. (Lk 2:48-49)

Why is this theme so universal? For millennia, many of the greatest accounts of heros, teachers, and mystics have been associated with mysteries about their birth and origins. But as I said before, all the stories are about you.

Nothing in your circumstances can account for why you’re here. You can thank your parents for giving you a body, but what gave you you? There’s a mystery in our origins. We don’t know where we have come from. Where does consciousness come from, life come from? Material answers simply lead to the question of where does matter come from? What made the Big Bang go bang? Where do I really, really come from?

This is one of the ultimate questions, or better yet, a part of the ultimate question. A Zen koan sharpens it this way: What was your face before your parents were born?

The stories tell us that finding your origin will be a spiritual earthquake. Luke Skywalker discovered that his father was one of the most powerful warriors in the galaxy, now intent on enslaving worlds. Dorothy killed the Wicked Witch of the West. Harry Potter discovers his wizard talents and his destiny to fight the most powerful and evil dark wizard. Peter Parker dedicates himself to protecting the population of his city. Ofelia learns she is the princess of an underground paradise, hidden from humans. Tristan discovers his heritage, happiness, and eternal life. Frodo destroys the inexorably corruptive Ring. Yegor choses between the dark and light sides.

Moses emancipated a nation. Jesus forgave the sins of the world.

What will you do? It’s time to find out. Who’s your Daddy?

WisdomReading is back!

After a seven-month hiatus, WisdomReading is back. It’s now in blog / comment format. If you’re interested in reading any or all of these key Scriptures with us (The New Testament, The Gospel of Thomas, The Dhammapada, The Upanishads, The Tao Te Ching), email me, and I’ll send you the URL.

I resolve…

Not to assume I know who I am.

Yes, there’s other things, too, relating to exercise, meditation, etc. All the usual stuff. And, I made the “guilt resolutions” very, very light… There’s a reasonable chance I can keep them.

But I realized that I want to go a bit deeper than that this year. If the reason we make resolutions is to change ourselves, maybe the fault lies not in needing to change this “person” we’ve come to think we are, but in assuming we’re that person in the first place.

Yeah, I’ll take a silly Internet personality quiz in a heartbeat… but I really want to see what happens if I scratch off some of my major assumptions about Jon. For instance:

I’m an introvert.
Am I this year? How will I know?
I don’t go out much.
That was true… what’s true now?
I start lots of things that I don’t finish.
Really? Who says?
I live more in my head than my heart or my body.
Interesting. We’ll see.

In other news:
I’m getting ready to restart the WisdomReading group as a separate blog. If you’re interested in reading The Gospel of Thomas, The Dhammapada, The Tao Te Ching, or The Upanishads, drop me a line, and I’ll email you the URL and other details when it’s ready. If you participated in the WisdomReading group last year, the format will be different. There will be posts once a week for each of those Scriptures, so if you don’t like the Upanishads, for example, but can’t get enough of Thomas, no problem. just read the weekly Thomas post and comment on it.

My language study is coming along quite well. I started studying Spanish in October, and I guess I’m at an intermediate level now. I grew up on the Mexican border, but had a strange resistance to learning Spanish… really, I could say “please,” “thank you,” “Where’s the bathroom,” and little else. Now I’ve got a better-than-beginner vocabulary, pretty good knowledge of the simple tenses (except the damn subjunctive), and I can read fairly decently, such as El Pais and Yahoo! Spain. Now, I’m working on more complex grammar issues, listening, and speaking.

I plan to continue working hard on Spanish for the next two months, and to start studying Catalan in March. I’ve been brushing up on Esperanto along the way. I wonder if I could really be quadrilingual by the end of the year? By then, I’d like to be able to translate the “Spirituality” pages of my site into Spanish, Catalan, and Esperanto, and to be able to correspond in those languages.

I’ll soon be doing a series of posts on love.

Everyone, Happy New Year! Bonan Novjaron! Feliz año nuevo! Bon any nou!

WisdomReading, 2006

Well, there was some interest in my reading schedule, so I created a Yahoo! group, WisdomReading, so we can go through these books together and discuss them.

We start on January 10, and will read through the entire New Testament, most of the Old Testament Wisdom books, including Sirach and Wisdom from the Catholic/Orthodox version of the OT, and several non-Biblical wisdom books.

The latter category includes the Gospel of Thomas, the Bhagavad Gita, the Upanishads, the Ashtavakra Gita, the Tao Te Ching, and the Dhammpada. If you’d like to join us but don’t want to buy any books, don’t worry: Almost all are available online, and your library also will have copies of most of them.

The readings are kept deliberately very short; in almost all cases all three readings can probably be done in 10-15 minutes. This will let us have more time to reflect upon the texts and share what we’re getting from them.

Hope to see you there!

Lectiodivina, 2006

My friend Darrell Grizzle has created a Yahoo! Group which will be reading the entire Bible through in 2006, including the Deuterocanonical/Apocryphal books. The group is Lectiodivina and you can join just by clicking the link and following the instructions. After you do, you might want to send a short introduction post to let the others know something about you. The “Files” link has the OT and NT reading schedule for the first 3 months.

Yours truly is a member, and I’ll be reading the NT with the group, although not the OT. What seems most valuable to me in the Old Testament are the Wisdom books: Job, Psalms, Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, The Song of Songs, Sirach (Ecclesiasticus), and Wisdom (of Solomon). In addition, I’ll also be reading the major Upanishads, the Tao Te Ching, the Dhammapada, the Bhagavad Gita and Ashtavakra Gita, and the Gospel of Thomas.

The schedule I created for this is deliberately light to allow plenty of time for reflection: no more than two chapters a day, of any book (sometimes just one), with the exception of Thomas, where I’ll generally just read three short logions a day. I’m greatly looking forward to reading the NT, Wisdom books, and these Eastern scriptures again, in a slow, more thoughtful way, since some of them I really ripped through when I read them the first time!

Sound interesting? Join us. (P.S. I don’t want to steal from the group’s thunder, but if you’re interested in reading Biblical and Eastern wisdom books in place of the OT, email me and I’ll send a copy of my reading schedule.)

Superb Translation of Thomas

I just came across the perfect translation of The Gospel of Thomas. It’s The Gospel of Thomas: the Gnostic Wisdom of Jesus, by Jean-Yves LeLoup, translated by Joseph Rowe.

This is a double translation. LeLoup translated the gospel into French and wrote a wonderful, meditative saying-by-saying commentary, originally published in 1986. Fortunately, Joseph Rowe has now translated the entire work into English. (It strikes me that this process is much like the history of the superb Jerusalem Bible, which also was a French translation first.)

Trust me when I say this is not just another Thomas translation. From the Introduction:

Pope Gregory I said that only a prophet could understand the prophets. And it is said that only a poet can understand a poet. Who, then, must we be in order to understand Yeshua?

St. Thomas and me

I warmed to Thomas slowly, from outright rejecting it in my first encounter, to cautiously considering it a few years later, to becoming drawn to the koan-like nature of many of the sayings in Thomas. As I began spiritual practice and meditation, it seemed to be almost screaming the obvious, yet still remained beautifully enigmatic and mysterious. There’s a feeling of immense depth in so many of the Thomas sayings, a sense that the meaning just keeps on going on deeper and deeper, and can never be exhausted. 

Unfortunately, most books on Thomas are not very useful for journeyers on the path. They tend to be either scholarly, dull commentaries on “Gnostic” beliefs, or Church history, or  Coptic grammar on the one hand, or else vague, sloppy musings on the other.

Much Christian thought, and “Jesus scholarship” in particular, is plagued by a dearth of serious mystical input. Everyone seems trapped in the quest for intellectual certainty, knowing what exactly Jesus did or didn’t say, and did or didn’t do. The ultra-liberal Jesus Seminar is simply the mirror image of entrenched Fundamentalism. Both sides (and most who are in-between), are mired in thinking that having the facts means having “True” Christianity.

The truth is that mystics understand mystics, and others cannot. Elaine Pagels made a great effort in her book, Beyond Belief: The Secret Gospel of Thomas, yet to anyone on the path, it’s apparent that in spite of her years of scholarship on the Nag Hammadi gospels, she still seems an outsider, looking in on something that she admires, but cannot follow. I mean no disrespect to Dr. Pagels—she’s simply in the same position as the overwhelming majority of adults on the planet. Factual knowledge can’t transcend the ego—there must be a willingness to be utterly changed by that Reality which is beyond the mind, beyond concepts, and yes, beyond belief.

Fortunately, Leloup’s excellent translation (and excellent meditative commentary!) is now available in English. In the Introduction, he writes:

Pope Gregory I said that only a prophet could understand the prophets. And it is said that only a poet can understand a poet. Who, then, must we be in order to understand Yeshua?

There simply isn’t a more succinct way of putting the problem into words.

Leloup also avoids needless controversy over the dating of Thomas, perceived conflicts with the canonical gospels, or debates about authenticity.

Might it be that our task is to read all the gospels together, seeing them as different points of view of the Christ, different points of view that exist both within us and outside of us? . . .

Leloup is also careful in his qualified use of the word gnostic. By “gnostic,” he means having an emphasis on gnosis as “a consciousness that arises directly from knowledge of ourselves, of the ‘Living One’ within us.” He goes on to emphasize that this gnosis is non-dualistic, and not to be confused with dualistic gnostic traditions or Manichean Gnosticism.

The book consists of two parts: first, the complete text of Thomas, with Coptic original on the left-hand pages, and the Leloup-Rowe translation on the right. It’s a beautiful and readable format. Following that is the commentary, in which each entry reprints the saying under discussion, and offers several relevant Biblical references. Then follow the comments, which Leloup describes thus:

What I propose is not so much a commentary on these words of Yeshua of Nazareth as it is a meditation that arises from the tilled earth of our silence. It is my belief that it is from this ground, rather than from mental agitation, that these words can bear their fruit of light.

The translation

Excerpt

True self-knowledge cannot be limited to to knowledge of the soul, nor to knowledge of the “little me,” the one wrapped up in a bag of skin. Self-knowledge is consciousness of all the dimensions of our being.

In this consciousness, as the second part of this logion tells us, we discover that we are also known. In our most intimate core, in the very movement of integration of all that we are, we discover the Other who is our ground. Again, we discover the metaphysical outer in the ultimate depths of the inner.

Thus, to know ourselves is to discover that we are known. It is to discover that in every act of true knowledge there is participation by an Intelligence that communicates through us and that offers us participation in its Light.

To love is to discover that we are loved. In every act of love there is a participation in a Love that is given to us and which offers us participation in its Life. This is what the apostle John means when he says, “Whoever loves, dwells in God, and God dwells in them, for God is Love.” To be able to truly love—even a dog or a flower—is always a grace. Hell is the absence of love, the loss of the power to love.

To know ourselves, to know that we are know, is also to discover ourselves reborn, each of us child of the Living One, flame of the Fire, child of the Wind. Not to know ourselves is to fall short of ourselves, to live in vain, to arise and disappear like fog from breath on a glass, to be vanity.

The Gospel of Thomas: The Gnostic Wisdom of Jesus, pp. 69-70

The translation is fresh, alive, and radiant. Unlike the majority of versions which attempt a word-for-word literalism, this feels more like “dynamic equivalence,” somewhat like the New International Version or Jerusalem Bible. Moreover, it’s translated by someone who is on the path which Jesus describes, so this translation is informed by the transformation of which the gospel speaks.

Compare a traditional translation of the prologue and first saying:

These are the hidden words that the living Jesus spoke. And Didymos Judas Thomas wrote them down.

And he said: “Whoever finds the meaning of these words will not taste death.”

with this:

These are the words of the Secret.
They were revealed by the Living Yeshua.
Didymus Judas Thomas wrote them down.

Yeshua said:
Whoever lives the interpretation of these words will no longer taste death.

This translation’s genius becomes apparent even in this short section. Leloup emphasizes that the words are about the Secret (the great Secret of Life) whether or not they were words kept secret, which other translations have emphasized. And where the scholars write “finds the meaning,” Leloup gives us “lives the interpretation.” (It makes me think that “living the teachings of Jesus” would be probably the best practical definition of Christianity we could have.)

In addition, “will no longer taste death,” instead of “will not taste death,” suggests that we are already tasting it, as we have pain, confusion, sickness, and dukkha in all its forms.

In his meditations on Saying 2, Leloup takes its references to seeking, finding, being troubled and upset, marveling, and “reigning over All” as “the major stages of gnosis,” and gives a simple, but insightful overview of the mystical path. His comments on Saying 3 are not only an insightful gloss on the passage, but a brilliant essay on non-duality, and the centrality of love in the transformation. (See sidebar.)

Leloup’s arrangement of the material is ideal for everyone reading Thomas. Newcomers to Thomas might very well just want to take it all in a single sitting, and the presentation of the whole gospel up front is suited to that purpose nicely.

Those who have already come to see Thomas as a significant text worthy of deep reflection will benefit from the one-saying-at-a-time arrangement with his meditative commentary. I, for one, intend to go through Thomas slowly, taking in just a passage or two a day before meditating. This edition has transformed my view of Thomas from simply a very inspiring ancient gospel, to a part of my adventure in awakening. Maybe it will do the same for you!

City Zen Citizen

My teacher made the observation that citizen can be divided into city Zen. He stressed the importance of being able to find stillness within, not just in the special environments and times we occasionally set aside for that, such as retreats, but whenever we can in the everyday, workaday world.

Within the course of any given day, we are often subtly drained by the tides of negativity, wants, and fears, and we tend to regard this broken, depleted state as “normal.”

Far from being selfish, “city Zen” is necessary for being a true citizen of the Kingdom, anchored in truth, unswayed by circumstances, resentment, and gossip. It’s necessary to have peace to share peace, it’s necessary to have love to give love. It’s necessary to drink the living water to have abundant life that can be shared, or even to survive yourself.

I love this story from the Gospel of Thomas:

Jesus said: “Look at that man. He’s running circles trying to catch that lamb.”
His disciples said: “Yes, he’s going to kill it and eat it.”
Jesus said: “and of course, he can’t eat it until he catches it and kills it. . . You too, must find your place of repose, or else you will also be caught and devoured.”